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Wednesday, November 29, 2006 @ 2:42 PM


wat a boring day in sch... boring subject... boring faci... feel like sleeping le... zZzzzz.... i dun even understand today's problem statement... stupid maths... actually i love maths very much de... now... I HATE IT!!! haizzz....


@ 8:15 AM


tis morning at 6am, the sky was very clear... i could see a lot of stars very clearly.. even the dimmest star... i saw some constellations, but i couldnt figure out wat constellations are they.. hehe... cos i haven memorise the names and how they look like.. hmmm.. anyway.. nxt week holidays start le... can make use of my holidays to study and memorise them... ^^


Tuesday, November 28, 2006 @ 6:18 PM


the last QT story i've found... hehe... entitled "The 4 Wives in Our Life"


从前有位国王,他有四位妻子。

国王最爱他的第四位妻子,给她穿最好的衣服,给她吃最美味的佳肴。国王也很爱他的第三位妻子,常带着她去邻国访问。国王同样爱着他的第二位妻子。她是国王的知心人。国王凡是遇到什么麻烦事,总要去找她商量并在她的帮助下度过难关。国王的第一位妻子对他忠心耿耿,为帮助国王守住财富和王位付出了很多。然而国王却并不珍惜这位妻子。尽管她深爱着国王,国王却无动于衷。

国王病重,时日无多。他暗想:"我有四个妻子 ,死的时候却只能一个人去吗?"于是他问第四个妻子:"我最爱你,你能陪我一起进坟墓吗?"

"想都别想!"这位妻子丢下一句话,头也不回地走了。

伤心的国王于是问第三个妻子:"我一辈子都爱你,你准备好同我一起去了?"

"不!"这位妻子答道,"你死了,我就改嫁。"

接着他问他的第二位妻子:"你总能帮我。现在,你能同我一起去吗?"

对方答道: "这次我可帮不了你,我能做的至多是给你下葬。"

这时,一个声音传来:"我陪你去,你去哪儿我都陪着你。"

国王朝着声音传来的方向望去,原来是他的第一位妻子。望着这位因营养不良而骨瘦如柴的妻子,国王热泪盈眶地说:"我早该对你好一点。"


实际上,每一个人的一生中都有四位妻子。第四位妻子是我们的身体。无论在世时耗费多少时间和精力去保养,一旦离开人世,身体也就离我们而去。第三位妻子是财富、权力和地位。哪天我们死了,这些东西都将落到别人的手里。第二位妻子是我们的家人和朋友。无论他们愿意给予我们多大的帮助,至多也只能陪我们走到墓穴的门口。我们的第一位妻子是心灵。

人生在世,人们总在不断追逐财富、权利和欢娱,反而忽视了心灵。然而只有心灵才会陪伴我们走到天涯海角。



@ 5:38 PM


another QT story... abt Jealousy and Blessing... enjoy.. ^^


在我们的国里,有一个女生。

有一天,她思想到一些事情,便问:“嫉妒,你在哪里?”

嫉妒回答说:“我在这里。(在你心里)”

她问嫉妒说:“嫉妒,你从哪里来?”

嫉妒回答说:“我从地上走来走去,往返而来。”

她问嫉妒说:“你对我有什么益处呢?”

嫉妒回答说:“我会激发你的斗志,为你加添自信。”

她说:“那又如何呢?”

嫉妒说:“你岂不见这国里的人们,有哪一个是比你美?是比你强?你现在却遭冷落,不受重视。”

她说:“是呀。我的容貌如此俊美,我的智慧如此高深,这国里有谁能比?然而我却很难听到这世界的称赞,我时常不甘心如此!”

嫉妒说:“我愿支援你,让你因着你的美貌与智慧,在这国里成为至高。因为这一切荣耀都是你应当得的,你现在只是缺乏自信与斗志。”

她说:“感谢你!我期待过上那让我满足的日子!”

嫉妒说:“我的主,我愿作你的奴仆,为你效劳!”

她说:“真这好!你现在就开始工作吧!”

于是,嫉妒开始忙碌地在这女生的生活里作工。

不久,这女生就成了这国的王。

嫉妒对她说:“我的主,我的王,你现在可知道我对你的效忠是不假的,如今,这国一切荣耀的冠冕都已加在你的头上!”

她说:“我忠实的仆人,我亲爱的朋友,这一切果然都是我应该得到的!”

又过了不久,有一天,一些奇怪的事情突然临到她。

她的眼睛什么也看不进去,她的耳朵什么也听不进去,她的嘴什么也吃不进去。

她痛苦地摸索着行走,来到一片旷野,孤独和饥渴充满她,她仆到在地上,几乎动弹不得。

这时候,一个牧羊人走到她的身边。

牧羊人说:“我的女孩,你在哪里?”

她回答说:“我是这国的王。你问我在哪里,我不知道!你是谁?”

牧羊人说:“我就是我。你听到了吗?”

她说:“我惟独听到你的声音,却看不到你,让我摸你的手。”

这时牧羊人已把手伸过去,握住她的手,说:“你现在的光景如何?”

她说:“我是这国的王,这国一切荣耀的冠冕都是归给我的,而我现在却看不到这国的景象,听不见这国的呼声,吃不进这国的奉纳!”

牧羊人说:“你的心还能容下什么?你所要的这一切景象、呼声、奉纳,对于你的生命还有什么意义呢?”

她说:“你能救治我吗?”

牧羊人说:“起来。”

她立刻就起来,眼睛就看见了,又听见河流的声音,牧羊人又给她水喝,给她饼和鱼吃。

她吃了喝了,就喊到:“我的主!”

牧羊人说:“你原来的主,它在哪里?”

她就希奇,对牧羊人说:“我素来没有作过谁的奴仆呀!”

牧羊人说:“你是作了一样东西的奴仆,它却说它愿作你的奴仆。”

她问:“主啊,求你告诉我,它是谁?”

牧羊人说:“你认识它,它叫‘嫉妒’。”

她说:“嫉妒说它是我的奴仆,它为我激发斗志,帮我充满自信。”

牧羊人说:“我实实在在地告诉你,它所做的是你原来所不知道的:

它削弱了你的心灵,让你的心灵变得何等的狭窄,再也放不进任何东西;

它建造层层密密的墙围住你,让你在自己的宫殿里面满足独立,却隔绝了你对别人的关爱与帮助,也隔绝了别人对你的关爱与帮助;

你的灵魂被它偷走,以至于你迷失生命的方向。”

她说:“主啊,我今天认识了你,也就看透了它。”

牧羊人说:“我所做的,不是凭着我自己做的,是那差我来者的意思;你认识的,就是那差我来者让我作的工。”

她说:“那你又怎能让我得着这救治的呢?”

牧羊人说:“我只是做了我在那差我来者面前应当做的,那就是为你——祝福。

就算是这世界上所有的人,都漠视你,都背弃你,都不给你祝福,我却给你这祝福!”

她说:“祝福是什么?”

牧羊人说:“祝福就是爱,就是照亮黑暗的光,

再坚硬顽固的心灵壁垒,因有爱的光,也要被穿透;

再堕落沉沦的灵魂,因有爱的光,也要被更新重建。

爱既是完全的,就把一切的嫉妒都除去。

哪怕一个最软弱的小人,如果他的心里能有对他人的祝福,

这世界一切的荣耀冠冕,在这样的祝福面前,也都要失去光辉;

嫉妒和它的同党们,在这样的祝福面前,也都不免要颤抖惊慌。”

她说:“我渴求我能常在这祝福的里面,也让这祝福能常在我的里面!主啊,我当怎样行?”

牧羊人说:“你既白白地得着这祝福,也要把这祝福白白地舍给别人。”

她说:“主啊,我忧愁自己的软弱,求你不要撇下我。”

牧羊人说:“进城去吧,我总与你同行,路已经预备好了。”



@ 12:46 PM


i came across this while looking for stories abt QT(ling xiu) for our fellowship de booklet... it is quite interesting... =]


一天早晨,我早早醒来去看日出。


啊!神的创造之美远远超过人所能描述的。我观看时,我为主美丽的创造之工而赞美。我坐在那儿,感到主与我同在。


祂问我:“你爱我吗?”


我答道:“当然了,我的神!你是我的主我的救赎者。”


祂又问我:“如果你身体有残疾,是否仍旧爱我 ?”


  我有些糊涂。我低头看看我的胳膊、腿和其它部分,我怀疑有多少事我原以为是理所当然的却不一定能做到。


  但我还是回答说:“主啊,这是很难的,但我仍旧爱你。”


主接着问我:“如果你是瞎眼的,你仍爱我的创造之物吗?”


  我该如何去爱那些我无法看见的东西呢?然而我又想到世上那些失明的人们,他们中间有多少人仍爱着神和祂的创造之物。于是我回答说:“想起来很难,但主啊,我还是愿意爱你。”


主又问我:“如果你是一个聋子,你是否仍愿意听我的话语?”


  耳聋的如何能够听见呢?然而我明白了。听神的话语并不仅仅用我们的耳朵而是用我们的心。我回答说:“主啊,会很难,但我愿意听你的话语。”


然后主问我:“如果你是一个哑巴,你是否仍愿意赞美我的名?”


  没有声音我如何能赞美呢?然而一句话启示了我:神希望我们从心底和灵魂的最深处发出赞美,祂并不在乎我们的声音如何。于是我回答说:“即使我不能发声,我仍将赞美你的名。”


主又问我:“你真的爱我吗?”


  带着勇气和信心,我大胆地回答说:“是的主啊!我爱你是因为你是那唯一的真神。我想我已经回答得很好了,但是……”


神问我:“那么为什么你还犯罪?”


我回答说:“因为我是人,我不完全。”


“那为什么在平安无事的时候你迷失得那么远?在遭遇难处的时候你又那么殷勤地祷告?”


  没有回答,有的只是眼泪……


主又继续问我:“为什么你只在团契和奋兴会中歌唱?为什么你只在敬拜的时候寻求我?为什么你每次都如此自私地求?为什么你求的时候没有信心?”


  我的眼泪顺着我的脖子继续往下流……


  “为什么你以我为羞耻?为什么你不传福音?为什么在遭受逼迫的时候,你不靠着我的肩膀去哭泣却去靠着人?为什么我给你机会去为我的名服事的时候,你总是找借口?”


我尝试着去回答,但却无言以对。


“你的生活如此蒙祝福。是我不让你把如此好的礼物扔掉。我保守你拥有聪明才智是为了让你服事我,但你却继续逃离我。我用我的话语启示你,但你却不在知识上有长进。我向你讲话,但你的耳朵却闭着。我把我的祝福倾注在你的身上,但你的眼目却离开这祝福。我派使者帮助你,但你却懒散地坐着把他们赶跑。我听了你的祷告并都作了回答,你却未曾有过感恩……”


  主再一次问我:“你真的爱我吗?”


我无法回答。我该如何回答呢?我在信仰上是如此的羞愧。我别无借口。我能说些什么呢?我的心开始哭泣,泪水涌出来,我说:“主啊,求你能饶恕我。我不配作你的孩子。”


  主回答说:“那是我的恩典,孩子。”


  我问道:“那么你为什么一再原谅我呢?为什么你如此爱我?”


主答道:“因为你是我所创造的,你是我的孩子。我永远不会撇弃你。当你哭泣的时候,我怜悯你,我与你一同哭泣。当你高兴的时候,我与你一同欢乐。无论发生什么事,我都一直在你身边,只是你自己没有注意到而已。”



常常祷告的时候,好像是神在问我:“你爱我吗?”

我几乎是马上祷告说:“是的,我爱你”

但是,马上,想到了如此软弱的自己,常常忘记神,常常只是为自己的私欲生活,常常在生活中不跟着神启示的道生活的样子。“是啊,神,我这样的人,怎么算是爱你呢?”“是的,我并不爱你!”


想到这样的时候,心里面却是更多的感动,感受到更大的恩典。是的,查看我们自己的时候,凭什么能说是爱神的呢?但是,这样的人,依然在我们不知道的时候就先找了我们,先爱了我们。主在我们不知道的时候就为我先钉了十字架。主啊,不是我们爱你,而是你先爱我!


不是我们拣选了神,不是我们的决致让我们来信靠神,不是因为我的功劳所以认识神的,不是我为神做了什么,在这一切之前,神做了更多的。我是因着神的恩典来到这个位置上的,所以,无论我为神做了什么,都是应该的,也是远远不够的。


何况,我能为神做什么呢?神不需要我做什么的,只是希望在这样的时候,与他一起工作的时候,和他同工的生活。


感谢主,因为你先拣选了我。



@ 7:27 AM


grrr... tis morning on the way to sch, i was coughing like hell in the bus.. and coughed until almost vomit... zzz... dunno how come so long still haven recover, i drank a lot of water le.. before lesson start, my water bottle already half-empty le... haiz... one day i might die frm coughing...


Monday, November 27, 2006 @ 5:54 PM


yup yup... today's lesson was rather fun.. my team went to Singapore Turf Club to explore... here are the pics we took on our journey... =]




in sch.. before setting off to Turf Club..




arghh... the taxi cant occupy 5 ppl.. we had no choice but to split.. haiz~




whee~!!! we're behind!! we're behind!!! can u see us?!!! =p




we've reached kranji le.. finally...




wat the... the gate is closed... T_T




we've no choice but to walk another way.. haiz...




zheng lei.. taking pic of himself... hahaha...




still a long long way to go... we're all weary... zZzz




finally.. we were in the office le.. Hey Jackie!!! stop pulling me!!! =p




team photo.. b4 heading back to sch...



@ 9:46 AM


stupid UT... no time to finish the qns... grrrrr.... wa seh... today our whole class sick... all of us were coughing away while doing UT... i cant even concentrate on the qns cos i was coughing too.. haiz... anyways.. today's culture module muz be very fun... cos we going out of the sch to explore places... ^^


@ 7:58 AM


here are some of the pics taken.. will upload more if have time.. hehe... =p




bestie forever~ =]




the poor cow which was abt to be "squeezed" by us... XD




"squeezing milk" =p




enjoying ourselves... XP




what a BIG elmo... o.O




MuAcKs~




Look~!!! we're on tv~!!! o.O



Sunday, November 26, 2006 @ 8:00 PM


heehee... had a fun day today... went out wif my bestie, Gienah, to Vivo city after my church service... we went to watch the movie, 9:56... eeee... not nice de lor... although it's a horror movie... actually we wanna watch Colic de.. but there dun have.. haiz... tat shows we shld do some research b4 going out for a movie...

we bought gummies into the theatre... haha... and the plastic bag was juz nice for me... i used it to cover my eyes when the scary part was coming... hehe... =p but not nice de leh... the ending unfinished de... and b4 it finishes, i knew tat after tat part the whole thing finished le... i can be the director le... hahahaha... =p

after watching, we went to sky park... took some pics there.. and we saw a cow statue... so we decided to make the "squeezing milk" post and take pic.. tat was Gienah's idea.. den there was a grp of frens.. they walked pass us while we were taking the pic.. and i heard one of them saying, "oh my god"... zzzz... so malu... =.= but anyways, we were having fun... haha... =D

we went back to the shopping centre to walk walk.. we went to Toy's'rus... played wif the big elmo soft toy and took pics too.. tat was fun... hehe... after playing, we went out.. and at the entrance there, we played wif the camera and the tv... we took pics of us in the tv... and tat was my idea... =p we were having fun taking pics of ourselves in the tv.. and we spent quite a lot of time there... haha... after taking, we stepped back.. and i saw 2-3 ppl taking pics of themselves too... =.=

hee.. i really enjoyed myself today at Vivo city... and tat was the first time i went out wif Gienah alone.. besides going out together as a class... =]


Saturday, November 25, 2006 @ 10:47 PM


woohooo~!! juz back home.. juz now after fellowship went to westmall wif jiaxin and jianming... we went to shop for zhiqi and yintze's bday presents... after tat we went back le.. and while i was walking thru my corridor, i looked up the sky... to see whether i can see any stars anot... cos the sky was quite clear... den i saw Orion again!!! hehe.. last week i oso saw Orion, but it was at ECP.. quite bright.. but today's Orion was quite dim... den below it, slightly to the right, i saw a star... twinkling wif different colours... sooo nice.. how i wish i could take pic of it... haiz...


@ 3:19 PM


woots~ time flies... it has already been 1 week since i saw a meteor in my entire life... and 1-and-a-half week more to holidays... and... i actually knew him for nearly 2 months le... =\

still rmb the first time i saw him... i was wif my fren, attending his talk... at tat point of time, i really hope tat i can have him as my fren, really hope to talk to him... and now.. he's my fren le.. we've even went out together... brought him to my area... slept in bus together... blablabla... hmmm... tinking back... those are really some kind of "sweet" memories for me too... =]


@ 10:17 AM


arghh... now having sore-throat + coughing... but muz try not to cough, if not my throat will start to pain le... haiz... anyways.. today going back to fellowship le.. hmmm... looking back.. really long long time nv go back le...


Friday, November 24, 2006 @ 10:14 PM


grrrrr... feel like shouting but i have no voice to do so... so irritating.. everytime wan watch my show cannot have peace de... and somemore i was coughing like hell now.. since tis morning.. haiz.. i have been coughing for almost 1 week le.. dunno wat happened... cos my classmates are oso coughing.. hmmm... maybe our classroom de environment not good ba... hmmmm...


@ 6:07 PM


arghhh~!!! i actually missed out my favourite topics!!! haiz... today's astro session is abt Orion, Andromeda and Winter sky... ALL MY FAVOURITE~!!!! grrrr... haiz... i nv go today cos my fren, Meiling, is not going... so i dun wanna go too... although the topics today are my favourite, without her, it will not be interesting le... cos nobody to accompany me...

i asked Lingyin to accompany me go oso... cos he shares the same interests as me too... whenever i was watching astronomy sites, he will watch it too... and whenever i opened my Stellarium program, he will oso look at it... but... he said those lessons can be found on websites... somemore today's weather not so good oso... so practical cannot see anything... yea... true...

haiz... and... is today "coughing day"?? why i kept coughing in class de.. and i oso heard most of my classmates coughing too... in the bus on the way back, i was coughing, and i oso heard someone coughing... o.O


Thursday, November 23, 2006 @ 6:32 PM


haiz... head is sooo painful now... dunno how come always after science module my head so pain de.... o.O Haiz~!!! hmmm.. but nvm... tinking of tml's astro my head not so pain after all... =]


Wednesday, November 22, 2006 @ 7:51 PM


haiz.. today's science UT... i'm really in a DEEP SHIIT... haiz... tis metaphor is so useful... cognitive lesson wasnt tat useless anyway... haiz....


@ 10:36 AM


whee~... finally... transferred my friendster blog to tis blog le.. keke... tis is my first time blogging... i mean using html... will try to improve more... =]





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Interests: gym, star-gazing, astronomy, playing piano, composing songs, pokemon ~

Fitness Goal: percent body fat = 15%, muscle mass = 22kg

Email: joyful_heaven88@hotmail.com


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