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Wednesday, December 5, 2007 @ 4:29 PM

i'm so angry! so angry with myself! last night Jin Peng called. at first we were fine. talking abt the bbq pit, and wat day should it be.

but our topic drifted away, and we talked abt astro club le. he said everything he was doing himself. nobody's helping him. blaming the rests of the committee saying we all not committed enough. blablabla.. den he said i did NOTHING for the club. NOTHING LEH! so wat's the blog doing there? fake? i spent my time making the blogs. even i had not finished doing my PP poster. which is more important than any other stuff.

i've had enough of it le. from the beginning, i NEVER thought of being a committee in the club, i SAID i wan to be just a MEMBER. JP made EVERY decision himself! and without my concern, he put me in the post of Assistant Secretary. and i've told him i wanna quit b4, but he asked me not to quit. so i dragged till now.

and now, i told him i want to be juz a member, and do not want to be in the committee. he asked to confirm again. and i said "confirmed". and i saw his msn nick saying: "Problem/Crisis reveal the real you!" and i knew he was referring to me. wat real me? i had always be myself. i helped to make the blog, taught him how to use the codes, prayed for the club. and wat did i get in return? he said i did NOTHING!

he thought wat ar.. everybody will be like him? i know he's very good in leadership. but not everyone will have this leadership in them. obviously he NEVER think of other ppl's feeling! how selfish! i really do not have the experience of being a committee myself, so i do not noe wat a committee need to do. although i did not help physically, i did help spiritually! and he didnt appreciate them.

ok, i'm not blaming him, just blaming myself. It's all my fault to agree him to join this club from the beginning. If i hadnt join this club, all these problem will not arise. now i've already quit as a committee. i will quit this club COMPLETELY! and i've made this very clearly to myself. i dun want to be involve in anything related to him ever again!

and i've learned a lesson from this. NEVER be nice to anyone, cos they will take advantage of you. when you want to quit, they will start blaming you. So i will not be nice and soft-hearted to anyone again! i will commit to NOTHING besides Christ. and i mean NOTHING!