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Tuesday, February 24, 2009 @ 12:49 AM

HAPPY 21ST BDAY HUAHUA!!!

actually i was intending to send her the msg at 12am sharp. but the time was still early, so i decided to find something to do. and... i really found smth to do..

i read my past diary entries (not in blogger).. when i first write a diary, i was in sec 3, which was inspired by my first guy. he wrote his entries in tat website, so i wrote it oso..

ever since i started to write, i will write it almost everyday, every single thing which happened on tat day, in detailed. and i wrote until the yr 2005. from yr 2003-2005.

when i read it, memories came flashing back... good and bad memories... abt my past relationships... and crushes i have on other ppl..

mostly was written abt my 2nd guy.. those memories were sweet..

i realized the way i wrote it.. looked so familiar.. later den i realized, it was the same style as written by Low Kay Hwa's in his books. cos in his books, he will include diary entries of the person when she was younger. and when the guy in the story read the entries, it seems like the writing style was same as mine.. i realized i wrote it in a childish way, and too much of broken english..

i realized a lot of things when i read through my entries.. realized how i was blinded by love in the past.. and how stubborn and silly i am.. looking back, i really find myself wasting so much time on some useless things with childish mindset..

guessed i was too engrossed in reading those entries.. until i overshot the time to send huahua a bday msg.. until she msn-ed me, den i rmb.. =.=

really let my huahua down.. haiz..

those entries.. be it sad or happy, really ruined my mood now... suddenly, i've become so emo.. even when chatting in msn, i juz merely typed "haha", but i juz couldnt smile..

i once wanted to bury those "precious" memories of mine deep in my heart, and nv to dig it out again.. din noe i will actually read it out of boredom... tat's so silly of me!!! O_O